Buona Mattina
Where have I been? We'll get to my absence in a moment. Here's some of what I've been doing:![]() |
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Return of the Late Di
... but I'm not planning on dying for many decades.I am sorry (to those who were following and to myself) for my temporary absence; I was verbally constipated. I wondered why I've been getting so hot-headed since I returned from my adventure. Part of it must be that I stopped writing for so long. Online, it looks as if I dropped off the edge of the world. And at times, I wished I could just slip out of my life and into a different one; the idea of starting life over with nothing but a backpack is so appealing that I almost did. The reality is, your life follows you wherever you go. Just because you go on vacation doesn't mean that you leave your problems and habits behind.
I've been all over the place emotionally since I returned, though physically I've hardly been anywhere. Things I used to be sure of I'm not sure of any more. Justin must be getting really good at bracing for sudden storms, because emotionally I feel like I'm living in the horse latitudes. I have taken things out on him that he doesn't deserve. It's tiring for me too. I have to find a job soon, and make some art soon, and write soon. But first I have to find the motivation for those things. I feel so drained by Indianapolis. I'm having a hard time tapping into inspiration and I can't believe I ever left Italy.
I'm not totally sure if I'll backtrack at all, or just start from where I am - resuming a blog after two months of silence isn't something I've done before. So for now, I'll just start with this little hello, and these photo highlights:
Hiking in Cinque Terre
Pesce d'aprile
Firenze!Burn all your puffy coats, we won't buy your clone jackets.
Swallow your hissing, kissing, meows, and clacks.
Step aside. Dishes aren't that interesting, so please keep walking.
Conosciamo, ma solo voglio una bottliglia di chianti. Grazie.
Ciao Bello,
I dropped your heart,
On Purpose
Poesia a Diana e Marisa
Piano piano!
It's been really hard for me to find the energy to write a blog update the past couple of weeks. Time is flying like the new born mosquitos - faster, actually, I just wanted to get the tidbit in about the changing seasons. Tempo del marzo is temperamental - the sun shines for two days, then it rains for two days, then it's cloudy, windy, and finally sunny again. Kind of like my trip, come to think of it ...Since the last time I wrote, a lot of living has happened, but nothing huge. I've mostly been working on my sculpture, collecting pezzi di pietra in my hair, painting pictures of naked people and shriveled beets, drinking sangria with friends at an Argentinean restaurant across the street from my from door, and experimenting with cooking vegetables in balsamic vinegar (very tasty indeed!).
I've also been busy arranging my schedule for next year and looking for jobs for when I return. I received an email this week notifying me that the interior design internship I've had for four years has come to an end due to economic reasons. I'm a little sad to be leaving a job that I've enjoyed and also some coworkers who have become lovely friends. But when I return, it will be many kinds of spring, and after a trip like this, I might as well take advantage of the opportunity to start anew.
For now, I need to turn my focus to Firenze. I'm sure that I won't have time to do everything I thought I would before I leave here, but that's life - I have grand dreams, but then I get caught up in the details. Some people are more ambitious, but me? I need time to soak everything in. I could leave now and be pretty happy - I've been enjoying the living - except some things are inexcusable - I have yet to see the David! I haven't been inside the Uffizi! I have only seen the Ponte Vecchio at night! Alas, there are a few precious Saturdays and Sundays remaining.
I still believe that somehow these dreams will happen. It's just that .... the problem with studying abroad is that you have to study! I have always been a good student, and for the last several semesters I've somehow managed to get the magic quattro-zero, for whatever it's worth. So this semester, if I come back with less than perfect grades, I think it's going to be ok.
I'm pretty sure that I'm not going to finish all the etching editions that are due - there are six due by the end of the semester, and I have two plates finished. I think I'll aim for 5, and if I only end up with 4 that will have to be good enough. The reality is, I'm not meant to be a printmaker. My prints come out nice, but I'm just not interested in the process. Once I get the drawing done, I want to move on to something else. I like to dig into my work, smear it around, change it up. I don't want to make 6 of the same image! I'd rather make 6 different images. I can see what some people might find so beautiful about printmaking and appreciate it - the biting of acid, the experiments and the multiplicity - but maybe I just don't get it.
I have more interesting things to think about. The Boy comes in 21 days, and I am more than ready to see him. I'm grateful for Skype and even the 16 million people using it who keep me from have a perfect connection, but I'll be glad when I can see any of love ones without pixels. Today we were talking and his face was pixelated in a way that made it look like he was crying. I was surprised for sure, and when I asked him if he was alright, he didn't know what I was talking about!
Ah, technology.
So it goes.

After resisting for three months, I finally got my hair cut yesterday. My stylist didn't speak English, but I was ready with the italian words for long, short, and curly, so through lots of gesturing and pointing we achieved a fresh cut that I'm pleased with. I always want the shampooing and conditioning head massage to go on for an hour, and somehow it was better this time because it was in Italy. She used a buzzer to cut my hair, and the whole thing went very fast; we were giggling the whole time as she asked me my opinions of Italy and Italian men and shared hers. I'm not sure exactly what she said, but she was saying something about how Italian men can sometimes be ugly and accompanying her explanation with her impersonation of someone using one of the squat toilets ... I guess she thinks they can be merde sometimes.
Well, they can. So can most guys, if they want to be. To be fair, it's true of women in a different way. But I prefer not to dwell on gender. Most of the people I've met here have been lovely to me, and when they haven't, I just keep going. I'm curious to see how my experience changes when there are two of us; it's very easy to meet people as a woman traveling alone, but I know I'll enjoy having someone to share my experiences with, and I won't miss the incessant self-chatter that keeps me company when I travel alone.
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A blooming world
I think I'm allergic to Italy. The top of my head feels like it's going to explode. Yesterday I walked around feeling like I was in a haze, and I had a lot of sensitivity to sound. My right eye was looking a little irritated. I went home from school around 8, ate dinner, and went to bed with the start of a migraine around 10 (I took a Zomig and then fell asleep). I woke up with a very sticky and pink right eye. I read that pink eye can occur as a response to allergies but that it usually impacts both eyes. This is the same eye that was pink a month ago! I've been taking care of myself in terms of my contacts, and now I've got my glasses on. But this pink eye is different from other times that I've had it. My eyeball hurts behind my skull - like the muscle or something. My eyelids are tender and my eyeball is itchy.I spent the weekend in the south of Italy visiting Pompei, Herculaneum, and Naples, and didn't have any problems with the pollen there. It's just Florence! Dirty, blooming Florence.
In one sense, everything is starting to fall apart. All my clothes are dirty, and my shirts especially are filthy beyond salvation. Last week, my jacket pocket ripped towards the zipper about 3 inches when it caught on some rough Italian wall, and the zipper of my boots broke on the left shoe (now the zip mechanism is only on one side). I have worn those boots nearly every day since I got here! They are so comfortable and so perfect for my lifestyle. Alas, I found a pair of simple black sneakers in Pompei Saturday night, and they will have to tide me over.
I'm happy though, really - or should I say, I'm really happy. This is one of the happiest periods of my life. I love my roommate Marisa, and I don't jive at all with my roommate Kerry, but none of it matters. The second part of this experience is so much more enjoyable than the first.
As far as photos go, I've got so many and such a terrible internet connection that it's really slow going getting them uploaded. I filled up my entire memory card the first day of the Pompei trip - that's 400 photos! So it's going to be a slow process. I'll get there.
I've been busy making travel plans with Justin and catching up on homework. He arrives one month from tomorrow - 18 aprile - and so far we've got a great itinerary going, with lots of room to adjust if we want. I'm excited. There's a part of me that is ready to move on from Firenze, and a part of me that realizes I'm only just getting started here. No part of me wants to go back to the US at this point, though I could be saying something different after three weeks of travel. My only regret is that I won't be able to plant things in my garden until May, and that could set me back on my vegetable crop for this summer ...
So it goes!
I've been on two field trips in the past week. On Wednesday, our sculpture class took a bus to Pietrasanta and Carrara, near Cinque Terre. Then on Friday, I went to Pompei with 24 students from SACI.
For the sculpture field trip, we visited a sculpture lab in Pietrasanta and hiked to see the marble quarries in Carrara. The quarries have been in use since Roman times. We saw where the marble is supposed to have come from for Michelangelo's David. It's incredible to think of how much marble is moved out of those mountains on a daily basis. We are literally eating away at the mountain range.
Pompei was incredible in a different way - a city paralyzed and preserved in an instant ...
Destino: Berlino
This has been an amazing weekend, not because I saw so much of Berlin, which I didn't, being on foot, alone, and extremely tired after spending the night in the Milan train station, then the next night at Watergate.It was amazing because I gained perspective on both Florence and Indianapolis. I have new ideas. I have a new image of myself as an American and as a world citizen. And I have new earrings that suit me perfectly. Since I've just been traveling by myself so far, there is no one to take photos of me, and I think that I ought to have photos of myself from this trip. So I set up a little photo shoot on the train back from Milan; Liguria was blessed with sunshine and warm weather, and I soaked it up from inside the train, along with the view of the Italian countryside.

After I took this photo, the train from Milan to Florence got interesting - long story short, I ended up playing the part of tour guide and dinner companion in Florence for two Malasian sales reps for Guess eye wear who were on the same train as me from Milan when it broke down in Bologna ... mama mia, what MADNESS ensued in the Bologna train station! There couldn't have been a more perfect comparison of Italian and German societies within one day.
I have new goals after this weekend. The first is to live in Berlin. The second is to master two languages apart from my mother tongue. I'm halfway to Italian, and I've got a little German translation book to start. Saturday night, I ate dinner in a bar and flipped through magazines trying to pick up some words. It's similar to English, and it's similar to having a wad of gum in your mouth (at least it feels that way when I say the words to myself).
I've had a crush on Germany from afar for some time now; it's only been fostered by everything I've read and everyone I've talked to who has been. Berlin in particular was my dream dress in a shop window. I've admired the funky cut, but only this weekend did I try it on for the first time. It fit like a dream. It's a bit dreary in Berlin in March, but the graffiti and people and love for music stirred me in a way that Firenze has not. I can't imagine that many people my age go to Berlin and have a bad time. It seems to have responded to its dark past by radicalizing. It's spread out, full of funky people. It's the mecca for minimal techno. And I'll be going back in May with the Boy for a week, so I'll have time to explore its wonderful museums, history, and vastness.
The main differences I noticed:
- more casual clothing style, but people were still just as stylish.
- the bars were approachable by at least two sides, and they were a place for socializing and interacting with bartenders, as opposed to bars in Italy, which are generally against the wall and not a place to hang out (though I'm sure there are exceptions?)
- women and men are friends in Germany - hallelujah!
- the men were still forward in their advances, but they weren't aggressive or overly sexual like many Italian men I've encountered - it was more about playful eye contact than spouting ciao bellas left and right. No one grabbed my butt or my hips in the club.
- people have tiny dogs with sweaters in Italy; in Germany, they have real dogs that are born with enough fur
- everything makes sense - the architecture and space planning, the train schedules, the social interactions ...
I promise photos this week!
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Sorprese della Settimana
I'm writing you this week from Berlin's Odyssee Hostel. As usual, the getting here was complicated and interesting, and did not go as planned. That's not to say it's been bad - unexpected has been the theme for my spring break, and this semester in general. Heck, let's just expand that statement to life ...There's a lot to write, so this is just a sketch of my week. I have LOTS of pictures to put up!
Thursday night, I ran out to the grocery store just before it closed for frozen yogurt, cookies, and cheese. As I approached my apartment carrying my impulse snacks, a big black man on a scooter outside my apartment said hello to me. He greeted me with a tinge of France in his voice and had the same open face Thierry, the security guard from Tenax, and so for a moment I thought it might be him.
"Hello ... do I know you? Is your name Thierry?"
"No, no, I am Desi! I know, all black people look the same ..."
"No! Give me some credit. I have a friend who looks so much like you, with the same accent, and the last time I saw him, he was on a scooter outside of my apartment ..." And so began the conversation.
Desi is a culinary instructor at a school in Florence. I told him I was an amateur cook, always making experiments. He suggested we meet up for a coffee, and we exchanged numbers. Then I went upstairs, ate my cookies, and went to bed. We met up the following night; I had a vodka tonic and he had banana juice, since he doesn't drink.
Desi is from the Ivory Coast, speaks French, Italian, English, and German, and loves New York. He wants to move there and open a restaurant. As we spoke, I made my best efforts, but he spoke to me in Italian and English when I was having trouble understanding. I noticed as we talked that my Italian has improved greatly. Sentences come together so naturally for me sometimes, and I even find myself thinking in Italian.
After our drinks, we walked around my side of Florence and Desi showed me an old farmer's market just minutes from my apartment that I had never seen because I simply had not ventured in that direction. Then he showed me Ganzo, the restaurant where he and his students cook. I loved seeing the kitchen when it was completely empty. He invited me for lunch sometime, and I told him I'd try to come in the next week.
My night ended early, yet I slept in on Saturday. When I finally woke up, I walked around the area Desi had showed me the night before, wandering through a little antique market and beyond; parts that weren't very touristy at all. Then Saturday night, I hung out with a new friend, Massimo, and his friends. He made us dinner. We ate in his apartment, and he thought he lived close to Tenax - first right, left, right, he said, then I'd be at the bus stop.
So I followed his directions and ended up at a park, but I saw nothing that looked like a bus stop. I saw a young man walking and asked him, "Scusa. Dove può aspetto autobus?"
He asked me where I lived in a thick italian accent. I told him I needed to go to Tenax discoteca but that I lived in centro and he said the fermata was qua and he would walk me there.
We began walking in a direction I was pretty sure was opposite of where I needed to go, and so I asked several times if we were going to the bus stop. He said yes every time, pointing while saying, "La fermata è qua," and I started to get a little worried. But when I asked him once more if we were going to a bus that could get me to Tenax, he said, "Ah! Tenax!" I guess he thought I needed to get home. We went in the other direction, asked a bus driver if the bus went to Tenax, and found out we were on the wrong side of town. So we walked, and walked, and walked, almost for an hour and a half. As we walked, he asked me questions, I asked him about Italy and Italian women and Italian school; we talked about our preferences. His name is Adrian; 25, from Calabria (which explains the thick accent). He doesn't speak English. He studies biology in Firenze.
We realized at some point that Tenax was going to be an hour's walk or more from where we ended up, so he called a taxi for me and we said goodbye after we agreed to meet up for a beer Sunday night as payment for his transport service.
Tenax was fun, as usual; I talked to Troy Pierce after about being from Indiana, gave him Seth's card for the record store, realized that even though his music is beautiful to my ears, he's kind of a bimbo. No matter. I got another ride home from Thierry. We left in his car this time; it was a very nice car, comfortable and warm; conversation was much easier without the wind blasting us. I invited him up for a tea and he accepted. We had two cups of white tea each while we talked.
Sunday, I met with Adrian; I cooked (an experiment that tasted good at the time, but then Adrian called me Monday to tell me the experiment hadn't gone well for him). I'm pleased with how my Italian is progressing, and I enjoyed being able to joke around with him - at least, he joked with me and I understood the humor. We even had some intellectual conversations ...
On Monday, Anne and I didn't go to Chianti. It was too muddy. The rainy season ceased for a couple of weeks but picked up again Sunday morning. So I went to school, painted a bit, and then hung out with Anne and her husband Will at their loft apartment in the evening, where we drank Anne's homemade sangria.
On Tuesday, I got up early to talk on Skype at school with Justin. He bought a roundtrip plane ticket to join me travelling after the semester ends. We were both psyched because not only does this set our travel plans in stone, he got the ticket for under $450, which I like to think is destino. After skyping, I painted, talked to my mom and dad on Skype, and wrote letters.
Tuesday evening, I met Adrian at Duomo, went to coffee, saw Cupido on the way, explained to Adrian that I had just seen un uomo non bravo (he laughed). Proof that Firenze is a small city. After coffee, I went home and experimented with food in my kitchen - chicken marinated in the juice I have for breakfast (orange-lemon-carrot juice, not too bad!). Desi came over later for a few minutes after he finished work and brought me white chocolate raisin cookies. I asked him about Berlusconi, homosexuality in Italy, corruption and let him do the talking, since I was tired. Then he left and I went to bed.
Wednesday, I found myself sleeping in again. I went to lunch at Ganzo, where I ate octopus for the first time and got ideas from paintings in the restaurant. My lunch was gourmet, freshly prepared, and free. It pays to have friends in the restaurant business.
I never made it to school; I went home instead, wrote some letters, talked to my sister Emily on Skype, researched the spring trip, talked to Justin and Stephen, joined CouchSurfers, got excited, showered, and went to bed super late.
Yesterday, I slept in again, went to school around 1 pm, printed out my travel information, bought a travel backback, packed for Berlin. Instead of going to Vinicio Caposello, I had dinner with Anne and Will at Il Gatto e La Volpe (where their balsamic vinegar is unlike any other, because it is thick and fruity and sweet and tangy). Then I headed to the train station and towards Milan. I planned on taking a bus from there to Bergamo airport, an hour away, and staying in the Bergamo Airport Hotel. But I missed the last bus to Bergamo by minutes, so I wandered back into the train station and asked the policeman what I should do. He suggested that the safest place was in their office, so I stayed up for four hours in the police station talking to Marco, a policeman from Calabria.
It was a funny twist, being on the good side of the inside, observing the train station from the back seat of the police cart. It was the cushiest seat. Marco brought me a lemon tea from the office. I took the first bus of the day to Bergamo, then slept on the floor of the Bergamo Orio al Serio Airport until someone told me I had to sleep on una sedia.
more to come ... I'm loving Berlin style.
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Lucky Breaks
All things considered, I had a great time in Venice. Things could have gone horribly wrong, but somehow I've been lucky enough to meet great people everywhere I've gone - Thierry, the security guard at TNX, Michele da Pisa, Enrico da Pisa, Enrico da Venezia, loads of Americans both in the States and here who have looked out for me when they had no obligation. For sure, I've encountered people with bad intentions, but there's something that shines through in good people that helps me recognize them.Maybe I'm just lucky. I think that luck is a feeling, though - a sense that things have gone your way. So, lucky, maybe, but I think I should give myself some credit too - I had a lot of things on my side. I had a map, mace, sobriety, cash. I speak the language. And I have common sense.
Of course, bad things happen, and they have, can, and will happen to me. Here's to hoping the luck in my equations doesn't run out.
Vacanza di Primavera has begun! Rimarrò in Firenze.
I'll be working on my paintings and sculpture during the day. SACI closes at 5, so I'll be forced out of the making-art world back into the being-art world.
Oggi (Today) - Art opening for 3 SACI students
Sabato - Troy Pierce @ Tenax - a DJ from Indiana who now lives in Berlin
Domenica - climb Duomo, visit Boboli Gardens
Lunedì - Chianti with Anne to visit sculpture professor Dario at his farm
Martedì - Jazz Club
Mercoledì - wander Firenze, maybe treat myself to an entire pizza, mmmm! (it's easy to eat an entire pizza by yourself here; they're sized for it)
Giovedì - Vinicio Capossela
Venerdì - Berlin (Sascha Funke at Watergate, a beautiful club I've never been to)
Sabato - Explore Berlin (if you've been there, I'd love suggestions)
Domenica - return from Berlin. Do laundry ... sleep.
Ah, planning. Sounds like a good week to me. Now, where to stay in Berlin? And how to get around? I have always my feet .... but in Berlin, not the language. It's been comforting knowing I can get around and understand signs in Italy, and I wish I understood more German. To some extent there's a natural translation and I think I could read a sign and get something from it. But I certainly couldn't put together my own sentence.
So far, traveling on my own has meant going with the flow, and I'm open to that.
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Venezia: in to, and in love
Venice is another world from the one I have known. This weekend was magical, convoluted, lucky. I walked for 16 hours on Saturday, 7 on Sunday: this is destined to be a long post.Where we have cars, they have boats.
There are no Vespas, no SmartCars, not even bicicletti - just canali, ponti, and marciapiedi.
Life is neccessarily slower.
And during Carnevale, life is weird.
Ducking under the feathers.
I have not been so enchanted with Firenze as I have been with Venezia. It would be hard not to fall in love with it.
Thursday night, Anne and I made masks with materials found at the Euro Store. I cut up a plastic gold mask that originally covered my entire face, and I painted it with nailpolish - the only thick paint I could find at the Euro Store. Then I went in search of feathers on Friday, and I found a cloth base with premounted feathers, so I mounted the plastic mask to the cloth mask for a more comfortable fit.
We took a bus Friday night to Mirano, a little town 30 minutes outside of Venice. We stayed in Leon D'Oro, where they fed us dinner and the best panna cotta I've ever had - it fell apart in my mouth so beautifully! After dinner we discovered the zipline and the trampoline behind the hotel. Zipping through the treeline and bouncing around like a maniac was exactly what I needed after being in Firenze for many weeks.
I went to bed early while the rest of SACI got drunk and loud, as I hadn't been to bed before 5 am for a week and a half (ah, the over-active mind). Then Saturday morning, I woke up, teased my hair out as big as it would get, and painted my face to match my mask.
We had breakfast in the hotel, then got on the bus for Venezia.
SACI people were ready for fun.
When we arrived in Venezia, I walked around with Alex all morning in the unbusy parts, looking for hidden courtyards and small alleys.
After a few hours, we stopped for lunch at the least expensive place we could find. Then we wandered accidentally into Piazza San Marco, where all the festivities and people gather. Alex and I parted ways, as I wanted to wander by myself.
I painted my lips gold and dusted my face heavily with shimmer. I wore the gold shawl my mother sent me for my birthday over an all black outfit. Then I played with some strangers, peaking out around corners and dancing under a pathway, acting mysterious.
It's easy to do strange things while wearing a mask.
There were so many ornate costumes as well.
I saw so many strange things. I was apparently one of them, as several people snapped my photo - one woman was just inches from my face with her telephoto lens. Later, when I was sitting down, a couple approached me and asked for a photo. Then the girl said, "Lui non è il mio fidanzato!" and the man came to put his arm around me for another photo. It was fun being both a spectator and a spectacle.
One man came up to me in full-costume, with a mask to his nose and fabric over his mouth, a rose in hand - he moved towards me slowly like a mime and pulled me into him for a brief kiss through the fabric. At the time I had no idea what was happening; I was very confused as his blue face moved closer and closer to mine. Then my face made a second of contact with the sequins over his mouth, and my eyes popped behind my mask. He twirled away, and immediately after, I laughed to myself and remembered hearing Carnevale in Venezia was famous for strangers doing all kinds of things with strangers.
In the evening, I met up with Marisa, Alex, and our friends Paul and Lindsey. We walked around and looked for a place to eat. We wandered into Ristorante La Feluca. I ordered minestrone all'ortolano - minestrone, grocer's style with fresh vegetables - and the most interesting thing I could find on the menu in the vegetarian section - il camembert caldo con miele d'acacia, le noci, e l'aceto balsamico - warm camembert with acacia-blossom honey, walnuts, pinenuts, and balsamic vinegar. I had no idea what camembert was but when it came, I was excited to dig into the soft, creamy white blob drizzled artfully with honey and crushed nuts.
(For those who aren't more gastronomically educated than me, I looked it up when I got home, and it's a famous soft french cheese.)
After dinner, we wandered over to the Ponte Rialto and down to the square on the other side. I found a drum circle - always my calling - and I stayed to dance in the deep beat of the drums when the others left. I danced with my mask on in the middle of the circle, and I met two girls from Bologna named Debora and Antonella. We danced together for a while, and then we left to go find a bathroom.
When we returned, we immersed ourselves in another square where minimal techno throbbed through the columns. "This is my music!" I thought to myself, and I danced and danced away. Antonella, Debora, and I collected good people along the way and we wandered back over the Ponte Rialto. As the night progressed so did the vibe, and nearing midnight, I realized I wanted to stay. SACI gave us the option of going back on the bus at 12:15 or finding our own accomodations, so I spoke with the girls and they helped me figure out a way back.
I phoned the TA on the trip to let them know, and everything was all set ... until I lost Debby and Antonella in the madness on the way back to San Marco. But I had a map in my pocket, and so I headed that way, thinking I could figure out a way back by myself. I ran into a group of American students who were studying in France but staying in a Venetian hostel; I told them my story, and they said, "Just stay with us! We're in a hostel and there are extra beds."
We wandered around, following the music which originated from a speaker mounted to a cart. It was like a mini-Love parade, with 30-40 people trailing the cart as it went up and down the bridges through the city. We ended up in an empty piazza and danced for a while; I spoke with some guys from Spain and some of the students from France.
I went down by the canal to talk with Phalyn, one girl from the France program. We sat on the steps with our bags behind us and we compared programs. Then when I stood up, my foot slipped on the algae and I slipped into the canal up to my chest. I kicked my legs around to keep afloat and reached for the bottom step to hold on, but it was so slippery that I slipped back into the water. Phalyn grabbed my arm and pulled me up. I wrung out my tights, socks, shirt, boots as best I could, and then we went back to the music.
I could only laugh at first, because the situation was so absurd. Then I could only shiver. I asked the Spaniards where they were going next, since the music had stopped.
They said, "We are going to dance! You just need to dance, then you will be warm!"
One of them gave me his wool sweater, which instantly improved the situation, but it was clear that neither of them realized the seriousness of being wet in the middle of winter.
Since my phone was fried, I decided I needed to find someone from Venice. I went to the guy with the music and told him, "Ho una problema. Sono caduata nell'acqua! Il mio telefonino non è funzione, e ho fredda - troppo fredda."
He felt my legs around my ankles and responded in English, "This has happened to me twice. I live very close to here. You need a hot shower and to get dry quickly. We can go to my house and you will take a hot shower and dry your clothes."
So Enrico and I walked fifteen minutes to his house, where he lives with his parents and sister. We walked quickly to keep me warm.
"Mi sento stupida, Enrico," I told him. I felt I had made a bruta figura, but he reassured me.
"No, no, this happens sometimes. The steps here are a problem. I work on a boat, and people fall in. In the summer it is not a problem, but in the winter you must get dry very quickly."
We arrived to his house, which was a large apartment many flights up with a view of Venice. He showed me where his sister was sleeping, and led me to the bathroom, where he gave me a towel and a hairdryer for my clothes. I showered until my feet no longer felt cold, then dryed my shoes and socks and clothes. I was glad I had worn two pair of tights instead of jeans, as they dried quickly.
I had planned on walking to Piazzale Roma after showering to catch a bus, but by the time I was dry it was somewhere between 3-6 am (I'm not exactly sure, since my phone was salty and wet). Enrico explained that the busses and taxis don't run during these hours, but he offered his couch, which was ready with blankets and pillows. He brought me a sweater and some of his sister's loose pants, and pointed up the stairs.
"Si hai bisogno di qualcosa, sono qui."
"Grazie mille, Enrico."
Then I fell asleep.
I woke in the morning to the sound of someone firing up a gas stove. It was his sister's friend, and she was surprised to see me on the couch. I explained to her why I was there, then asked what time it was. It was 9, so I got ready to meet SACI at Piazzale Roma - the bus was due to arrive at 10:15. While I got ready I heard the many church bells of Venice - it is not like Florence, where the Duomo rings out one chime at a time, loud and clear. The bells echoed off the water and rang like a chorus, one after another after another, each sounding a little different.
More to come ...
Blue Sky, Pink Eye.
I've had a difficult time finding the energy to update this past week or so. After the jazz club last week, I realized how short my time is here: next week is midterm, the week after is spring break.On Friday I went to Pisa to visit my friend Michele whom I met at TNX. On the way to Pisa I took a very comfortable train; I sat across from a man reading the newspaper. I nodded in and out of sleep for almost an hour. After waking to a phone call from Michele, I asked this man, "C'è un bagno?"
"Eh...," he looked around, "Ah, si!" He tapped on the big plastic cave behind him.
After navigating the strange train bathroom, I returned to my seat, and asked him if he was headed to Pisa. He was, and he helped me perfect my grammar in a text to Michele with information on our arrival.
He had a little voice, but was very kind. His name is Enrico; he's lived in Pisa for 40 years, but works in Firenze as a cashier. He was really curious about what I was doing in Italy, and also about what I was interested in doing with art. I told him I want to teach, but I also want to design album covers (to get to that point, I had to draw a record with an arrow to an envelope, because I couldn't remember the word for vinyl record - disco is the word). He was so helpful throughout the conversation, encouraging me to just try to say something in Italian, even when I thought I didn't know the words just right.
Enrico da Pisa
When I meet people like Enrico, I am filled with happiness. It makes me feel more comfortable while I bumble through a language that I love, and it is good for both parties to make a cross-cultural connnection. I wrote my blog address on a flyer I had in my notebook from an electronic event we helped my friend Seth promote; he wrote his email in my notebook. Enrico looked thrilled to have a piece of America; his hand was shaking just holding the paper while he smiled and said, "Grazie, grazie!"While I waited for Michele, Enrico waited with me. "This is not a good place for you to wait alone," he said. I looked around. I saw that there were indeed some dubious characters; many people had come for respite from the bitter cold. The Stazione is sort of a run-down place; it was in this train station that I used my first squat toilet.
BEFORE my squatting commenced.
Pisa itself is sort of a dying city, but it was interesting to see the night life, which seemed to revolve around one bar and walking in groups. Pisa is full of one way streets; Michele explained to me that if you have to go somewhere 5 meters away in your car, you might have to drive 100 meters just to get there. As he explained this he snaked through Pisa in his car on the way back from seeing the tower.
Straight, straight, straight, tilt.
I spent a few hours walking around with Michele - the first uomo italiano willing to be just my friend. We successfully conversed in a mixture of Italian and English. I really was enjoying the bus ride back, too, but it got me into a pensive place. The bus and the train were both very comfortable. On the bus there were maybe 10 people and 40 seats; it was dark and warm and though I couldn't see much of the countryside, I knew I was seeing some trees.I walked back from the Santa Maria Novella train station at 2:30 am Saturday morning, saw lots of drunk American students, and went to bed.
Sunglasses provide instant attitude to any outfit, which is why I love wearing my aviators. After I looked out into the courtyard and saw a blue sky on Saturday, I thought it might be a badass day.
Yes, yes it is! Blue skies, hallelujah.
I didn't want to go to the doctor again, so I looked up some natural remedies and decided to use a cold chamomile tea bag. It was soothing to my eye, and when I woke up Sunday, the redness had diminished drastically. A haze of pink remained until today, but it never got worse. Maybe chamomile works; maybe I just didn't have pink eye. Either way I'm glad.But when I got into the bathroom, I realized that despite all the sunshine, there would be no sunglasses for me for many days. I woke up with pink eye, or what I think was pink eye. I wore my eye glasses instead.
Saturday, Valentine's Day, I saw many couples walking around, and despite all the sunshine, I couldn't help but wish for something more. Though I believe Valentine's Day to be a commercial excuse, I also think it's a good day for reflection. I saw an old man with eyes so bright blue that he still looked youthful, and it had me thinking of Justin's bright eyes. Since we couldn't spend Valentine's Day together in analog, we spent a few minutes together digitally.
After our Skype date, I had a platonic date with Alex at the Jazz club. Before jazzing it up, we (or I should say, Alex) made dinner at our apartment - chicken with pepper with onions with garlic with peas with rice. It was delicious, and we ate every last bite. Then we headed out to the Jazz Club around the corner and around the street.
All around, it was a good weekend; I spent a bit of time working on my projects, and that's what I'll be doing all week too. I have an etching critique on Thursday and a book due Monday, and I'll be at school until closing time at 10 all this week. There's no time to work on my projects this weekend, for Friday, I go to Venezia for Carnevale, and I shan't return until Sunday!
Of course, many photos of Venezia to come.
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Spiritata?
Just a quick update that I'm sure I'll edit later; this week has been all ups and downs and I needed time to digest before writing anymore.Last night, met up with some other SACI kids at the Duomo and went to a jazz club we've been hearing about. We walked around for a while trying to find it; as we were walking I talked to a new friend that I don't know very well yet. We shared a cab from the airport the first day we all got here, but we haven't spent much time talking. The subject turned to music, and apparently he also listens to a lot of minimal techno (among other electronic genres). We talked about maybe going to a show sometime; maybe I will have a companion for TNX next time; we'll see how it pans out.
We finally figured out where the jazz club was, it turned out that it's a minute walk from my apartment in this little alley with an unassuming sign and stairs into a basement. It cost 8 euro to join, but there is a free jam session every Tuesday (blues) and Wednesday (jazz), and I'll never have to pay to get in again. I joined a club - oh my gosh!

The scene had exactly the vibe I've been missing from home; the musicians were awesome and they looked so damned thrilled to be up on stage. There were musicians all over the place, and they switched out through the night. At one point these two young musicians, maybe 15 or 16 years old, came up and started playing. One played bass guitar, the other maybe an electric guitar, I'm not sure. They were really good and the vibe just got better throughout the night.
I met a guy from London who's been living in Florence for two years, and his friend from Poland. The Londoner was showing his friend a magic trick with two corks, and his friend was trying to figure it out. I was sitting a couple of seats away, and he handed me the corks. I tried a few times, and from there, we started talking. It was refreshing to meet them.
At one point during the night, a woman got up on stage and sang; her voice was incredible. She was really belting it out, and it did something to my insides. Listening to her voice woke something up inside me. There were a lot of SACI kids there too, some dancing, others closing their eyes and moving along in their seats. I got up to dance for a while, and the musicians were loving it. I wish I had my camera with me to take pictures of their facial expressions, but this week I will get one, and I'll be going back every Tuesday anyway. I kept thinking to myself all night, "Man, this is great! I could have a great night every Tuesday if I wanted to!" It's nice to have found something that happens on a regular basis; something to look forward to.


In art news, this is the clay model I have been working from for stone carving. It's my idea of what the Large Hadron Collider might look like if might happen if the fears about it come true - the earth, splitting away from time, collapsing into itself.
The stone isn't much to look at yet, but for progression purposes, I'll be documenting.
This will be the back side, with the beginning of the "black hole" (yes, I know we don't know what they actually look like, but this is contemporary art, where we can imagine anything we want):

And this is the side that is highest - to the right is where the undulation will occur. The left side is the back:

Dario, my sculpture professor, encourages me to use the stone that I have, but I am so attached to the way I want it to look that I am having a hard time not wanting to widdle away the hunk of pietra into my dream piece. It is kind of a shame to waste all that stone, though. We'll see where it goes.
Dario came in to check on my progress today and also ask if I was feeling better about being in Italy. I told him last week that I was feeling lonely, and discouraged by my attempts at socializing, and he offered some suggestions to me. I love this professor; he's a hilarious little italian man with a sharp wit, but also absentminded. Sometimes, quite suddenly, he pops into the room where I am working to blurt something out. Today it was, "I was thinking! Ahermm, maybe those italian raggazi have met girls before who had a boyfriend een the Stayeetes and in Eeetaly, that is why they think it ees ok."
I took a break from carving to go to the Wind store before it closed to get a recharge card for the internet. When I returned, he asked how it was, and I said, "It was a nice, brisk walk." He didn't understand brisk, and so we started talking about what another way of saying it might be, and how they might say in Italian. Anne offered that another word for brisk might be quick, fast, or spirited, and Dario latched on to "spirited." He said, "You could call it una passegiata spiritata, but then the italians will find that funny! It means like you have a little devil inside you." We were cracking up and I was demonstrating what my possesed walk to the wind store might have been like. It was good to goof around. I felt like they got to know me a little more because they hadn't seen that side of me, and it was good to relax and have a laugh. I've been feeling out of sorts here, but tonight, I felt like regular Diana, which is not very regular at all.
Tonight I think we will go back to the jazz club and find out if we like the jazz jam sessions as much as the blues jam sessions. Tomorrow night I am going with a friend from sculpture class, Bre, to have dinner somewhere on the other side of the river (apparently things are less expensive over there); she has similar goals for her experience here, and I really enjoy working alongside her in class.
Last night, while listening to the music, I realized how short my time really is in Italy, and I was both relieved, and sad. Though I miss home, this is where I need to be right now.
So there is hope.
More to come soon.
An Evening for Chamomile.
My birthday evening ended early: dinner, tears, desert, un flautista della via, a postprandial walk, a dance in Piazza della Repubblica, a glass of sangria with four lovely ladies.Wine can't fix bad group dynamics. It sometimes just brings out caustic humor.

But I loved this, after a stressful dinner with people that should not eat together:
But I loved this, after a stressful dinner with people that should not eat together:
I like to believe there is always something lovely if you keep looking.
If you don't find it, maybe it's you?
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Tanti Auguri a Me
One of the most valuable things I've learned from my coworker Amanda and friends at home is to take time for myself. And so yesterday, I didn't go to class. I knew I could afford the time; I felt like I owed it to myself. I had a mental ache; I needed a break from Italy. For the past few days I knew I had been slipping into a negative place, withdrawing from my friends and roommates, feeling miserable because of the rain and disappointed by my attempts at relationships. I stayed home, wrote, drank tea with my roommate Marisa while looking out into the courtyard and the sky above.Just the day before (Wednesday), I received a long-awaited package from Justin containing a lovely letter, three pair of SmartWool Socks and a pack of white socks, three boxes of tea so we can have transatlantic digital tea parties, my paintbrushes, photos, a spoon from his kitchen (someday soon I'll explain the spoon thing), and some of his clothes (two tee shirts, boxers) that smell like him. It was the ultimate care package. So when I sat down for tea with Marisa, I enjoyed my first cup of the Aged Earl Grey ("Bergamot Assam, robust with fruity notes"!). She had a cup of Indian Spiced Chai.
It was nice to unwind and share a cup with her; sometimes I become so drawn into myself that I forget to connect with others.
After tea, I went to Zecchi's, a tiny art store jam-packed with supplies, located near the Duomo. Half of the things you need you can't find, you just have to ask for them. I needed a stretch of canvas, so asked for tre metri, which turned out to be twice as much as I expected. I wasn't upset when I saw it though, I just laughed to think about how this little 5'4" girl was going to carry a nine foot tube through the center of Firenze for the 10 minute walk to school. I knew I would get some strange looks, and I did; I giggled to myself every time I saw my reflection. There's an unspoken rule about how to navigate the streets here. You have to pay attention to who's coming your way, and who might be behind you, and if you've got an umbrella or something big you had better know when to step out of the way, or hold your ground. I think people thought I was going to hit them, but I knew how to handle it.
I saw my friend Alex at school; I lunged toward him, wielding my tube of canvas like a ridiculous sword. There was a similarly sized package of polyester film waiting at the front desk, and so he grabbed it and we postured playfully in the lobby. It had me laughing, and the good mood set the tone for the rest of the evening.
I stayed to work on the second painting in my series of beets paintings; this one is turning out better because the objective is to paint from memory. I have my easel set up with my still life behind me; I turn around to make a mental note, but I do no painting while looking. Doing so frees me up and I focus less on the exactitude of the objects, more on the impression they make in my mind.
When I left, I walked with friends Libby and Alex to an empty San Lorenzo market, parting ways with Libby when another friend, Anne, came around the corner. Anne was on her way to meet Marisa for a glass of wine. It seemed like the perfect cap to the evening, and so we came along. We met Marisa at the Duomo and then wandered for a while.
We stumbled upon a restaurant - and by stumbled, I mean stared at the menu long enough for the owner to come out and offer us a table. We were drawn in when he started explaining a bottle of wine, which he produced himself. We sat down, intending to enjoy one bottle and go, but Marisa and I split a margherita pizza and the others split bruschetta. The wine was crisp and smooth; the pizza was better than anything I had eaten thus far in Italy. The cheese dripped off the slices, warm and flavorful, deliciously salty (thus prompting more wine)
We were all giggling from the wine, except Alex, who generally isn't too giggly but brings out the best humor in us by being his goofy, witty self.

Here is the man himself, caught in an unfortunate blinking moment - though the expression is still pretty accurate.
Here is the man himself, caught in an unfortunate blinking moment - though the expression is still pretty accurate.
I summoned Massimo the winemaker.
"Signore, il tuo vino è buonissimo! Domani è il mio cumpleanno, e vorrei mangiare qui."
"I ahm so flahhttered," he said. He gestured to where my table would be.
We spoke with him for a while after paying il conto. Massimo delighted us with his Italian accent on English words, and he enjoyed our best efforts at Italian.
By the time we left, fifteen minutes remained of the day, and so we headed towards the Ponte Vecchio. I skipped alongside the Arno, singing out single Italian words as they came to me, giddy and pleased that I had turned my mood around.
And so it goes.
When the bells of the Duomo rang out at midnight last night, I sat on the ledge of the Ponte Vecchio, smack dab in the middle, next to the Lover's Locks and three new friends. I'm one for symbolism, and it felt like the best place in Florence to spend the last few minutes of my twenty-first year, and the first few minutes of the next.
I embraced the silliness. "I want to be part of the river!" I cried out. I spit into the river, and then so too did Anne, who was next to me, then Marisa, then Alex.
If the best place to be when I turned into my New Year was on a bridge, then I decided we certainly couldn't turn back around and go home the way we came. We finished crossing the Ponte Vecchio and wandered alongside the Arno down to the next bridge, stopping only for four cannoli and for me, an unknown torta ciocolatta with rum. MMMM! to wipe the sugar dust off your face at 00:30, to enjoy a wine buzz, and then a birthday buzz, and then a dolce buzz.
And, Oh! to forget about blending in, to spit in the river, to laugh loudly on the street.
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Desidero l'impossibile.
Piove, piove, piove! Brisk weather, and puddles between the cobblestones always. When will it stop?This is the San Lorenzo market at 8 a.m. Here, the cobblestones glisten because they are damp with rain. Otherwise they are dull. I pass this market every day at least once. The vendors in this market put up their shops every morning only to tear them down at night. I imagine it's better than working in un negozio because there is much more interaction with people on the street and the other vendors. In mercato San Lorenzo, they sell leather goods, journals, umbrellas, purses, belts, clothes.
In the mercato centrale, they sell food: it is a feast for the eyes.
I woke up yesterday with a sore throat (5th day in a row) - un mal di gola - and stuffy head. My voice sounds like a see saw. I called the English doctor listed on the SACI quick reference sheet; when I called he answered the phone himself. I've never had a doctor answer the phone before - just overworked, underpaid receptionistas. He said to come down right away, as he was starving for lunch but he would wait for me.
It was so very informal, yet professional; the examination room was also his office, and he filled out the form for me, as I was a bit out of it. He looked in my throat, ears, listened to my chest, and without really defining what he thought was wrong with me, said, "I think we ought to treat you for tonsillitis."
So off I went, 40 euro later, prescription in hand, to the pharmacy right next door. No little square of paper, just a piece of a small notepad with a stamp from his office. While the pharmacist retrieved the medicines, one woman behind the counter stared me down. She looked annoyed that I was even there but maybe she was just annoyed to be there in the first place.
The pharmacist gave me two boxes of amoxicillin-penicillin horse pills, a cleverly designed bottle of throat-numb spray, and a packet of decongestants - all for the great price of 41 euro ! That's $52. I couldn't help but think of how in America, my insurance would cover me for a $20 visit and the medicine might have cost half of what I paid here. Ah, well. That's what you get for buying minimum student insurance at the italian post office.
In other news, I wonder - Has it come to this? I hope it is not true: Penso che una donna e un uomo non potrebbere essere amici in Italia.
I think it is not possible for a woman and a man to be friends in Italy. Some think it is true everywhere, but my experience has been different in America.
Outside of SACI students, I hoped to make friends with people who live here, but the women are not very approachable, and the men seem to only want one thing. Le americane have a reputation for being easy, and I can see why when I observe them in the discoteche. I'm sure this is somewhat true; when hundreds of young women are unleashed in a city that inspires romance, why wouldn't they go for the dashing italian men? (For the record, italian men are not, in my experience, very good dancers.)
Speaking of embracing sexuality...
I find this pene pasta everywhere. Punny pasta. The picture is foggy because of steam.
"Ah, brava, brava," they said. So I thought we had an understanding. How naive I must be!
I told them I needed to go shopping, and Cupido offered that he could show me some nice stores the next day. So we met, looked around, had simple conversations, ate lunch. He didn't linger when he dropped me off; he left immediately after the customary cheek-cheek kiss.
He called me last night to tell me he likes me very much! And, that he knows I had a boyfriend, but he wants to see me! I am in Italy! I should have an Italian boyfriend too! I am a brava ragazza! He is in love with me! (So he says).
I laughed, said, "È ridicolo! Questo non è amore. Non è possibile." I knew what he was really wanting, and it was confirmed when I spoke with my roommate the next day.
He told her that he just wants to fare il sesso with me and, dopo, non chiamami mai.
Bravo ragazzo?
It is hard to have intellectual conversations in Italian. I hardly have a vocabulary for it. I wonder how I will make friends if I can't share in Italian my ideas about life. I'll keep trying; I see three promising friendships with locals, but I will only know in time what their real motives are.
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