Bisogni di Cambiamente
I drove to campus today but never made it to class; I went to a Medcheck instead. I've been taking medicine to help with an ulcer, but today things got worse. It seems I haven't been healthy this whole semester, and the stress has just been stacking up. I can't help but compare it to this very time last year. I was feeling so healthy. Eating vegan, doing yoga, sleeping fairly normal hours. Good posture, normal eating schedule, no anxiety about taking a sabbatical from my life.The earliest doctor's appointment was next Wednesday, but the doctor I saw at Medcheck thought that wasn't soon enough. He left the room to pull some strings. He came back with a stack of papers.
"I got you in with Dr. Pallekonda tomorrow at 9:45." He shuffled through the papers. "This one says you aren't to work tomorrow. Stay at home and rest."
Sweet Relief! I need the money, but I also need a break. What a gift, being instructed to rest when the mantra has been, "Go, go, go."
I think I may have underestimated this medical issue. At least I'll be able to catch up on some stuff tomorrow.
It's been a rough few months for us, but things are looking up. Justin was hired on as a server at Fogo de Chão on Monday, and he got a car yesterday. I'm so glad to see him busy, planning, given a second chance. I know what he's made of, and he deserves this. Something to focus on. Something new. Comraderie, a fast paced environment, precise service, a challenge. The environment sounds like it's going to be just what he needs right now. I am excited for him, and I have to say, excited for me.
Change is good for us. This comes at a time where I really need to focus on getting things done. The semester is coming to a close, and as usual, I am scrambling. I know I can get it all done. But I misunderstood the requirements for my application next semester. To take advanced classes, I'll need to submit a CD of my work so professors can evaluate what skill sets the students have. I thought I had to turn this in with my application, so I completed the application online and waited to send it until the sculpture and painting work was complete. When I realized I could submit the CD after applying, I submitted my application right away.
Now there are many things to complete post-application, and I am rushing. You should see my iCal. I've got every day planned out for the next five weeks. Of course I could have done this weeks ago if it had been clearer, though I'm certainly not blaming this on the explanation I was given. It comes down to me learning about time management. I am making a concerted effort to do so.
Italy is an idealized country, and in this case, chasing after an ideal is good. Things won't be how I've imagined, but I'm prepared for that. The anticipation of discovery keeps me moving, excited, hopeful. I love the sense that I'm heading into big change. With plenty of fresh food, fresh sights, fresh sounds, January sounds like just what I need.
