Union Station


I've been practicing saying Ho trovato mio padre biologico. I have found my biological father, and next semester, I want to talk about it.

Late Friday afternoon, Stephen flew in to Indianapolis International from Boston. Stephen had only ever been to Indy on a bus trip for the inaugural game at the RCA Dome. I had only been to the new airport once since it opened in November, and my visit was limited to curb-side pickup. It took few minutes to find each other, as we were both wandering in new territory. I was on the street level; he was on the third floor. We stayed connected by phone as we looked for one another, and finally we realized he was on the cross bridge just above me, both of us heading from the airport to the car rental. He turned the corner from the escalator just as I approached its bottom.

"We've found each other!" I cried out. We hugged, and then hugged again, again, again.

While realizing our parallel paths, I couldn't help but smile at the poetry. I found poetry over the place this weekend.

The itinerary was loose. I showed Stephen my old haunts in Zionsville, my desk at work, my art, my childhood home. As we drove around Indianapolis, I pointed out favorite restaurants, shortcuts through town, places of memories. It felt like a four day tour of my life; he drove most of the time and I gave directions, told stories, and listened.

It's clear that I'm the child of Stephen and Sharon - my natal parents, my creators, the initiators of my life. But it's also clear that I've been raised by the parents who adopted me. It is so fascinating to examine life through the lens of reunion. There is so much I don't understand, so much I want to understand but that will take much time. How fortunate am I that so many people have asked for me to be in this world.

Bisogni di Cambiamente

I drove to campus today but never made it to class; I went to a Medcheck instead. I've been taking medicine to help with an ulcer, but today things got worse. It seems I haven't been healthy this whole semester, and the stress has just been stacking up. I can't help but compare it to this very time last year. I was feeling so healthy. Eating vegan, doing yoga, sleeping fairly normal hours. Good posture, normal eating schedule, no anxiety about taking a sabbatical from my life.

The earliest doctor's appointment was next Wednesday, but the doctor I saw at Medcheck thought that wasn't soon enough. He left the room to pull some strings. He came back with a stack of papers.

"I got you in with Dr. Pallekonda tomorrow at 9:45." He shuffled through the papers. "This one says you aren't to work tomorrow. Stay at home and rest."

Sweet Relief! I need the money, but I also need a break. What a gift, being instructed to rest when the mantra has been, "Go, go, go."

I think I may have underestimated this medical issue. At least I'll be able to catch up on some stuff tomorrow.

It's been a rough few months for us, but things are looking up. Justin was hired on as a server at Fogo de Chão on Monday, and he got a car yesterday. I'm so glad to see him busy, planning, given a second chance. I know what he's made of, and he deserves this. Something to focus on. Something new. Comraderie, a fast paced environment, precise service, a challenge. The environment sounds like it's going to be just what he needs right now. I am excited for him, and I have to say, excited for me.

Change is good for us. This comes at a time where I really need to focus on getting things done. The semester is coming to a close, and as usual, I am scrambling. I know I can get it all done. But I misunderstood the requirements for my application next semester. To take advanced classes, I'll need to submit a CD of my work so professors can evaluate what skill sets the students have. I thought I had to turn this in with my application, so I completed the application online and waited to send it until the sculpture and painting work was complete. When I realized I could submit the CD after applying, I submitted my application right away.

Now there are many things to complete post-application, and I am rushing. You should see my iCal. I've got every day planned out for the next five weeks. Of course I could have done this weeks ago if it had been clearer, though I'm certainly not blaming this on the explanation I was given. It comes down to me learning about time management. I am making a concerted effort to do so.

Italy is an idealized country, and in this case, chasing after an ideal is good. Things won't be how I've imagined, but I'm prepared for that. The anticipation of discovery keeps me moving, excited, hopeful. I love the sense that I'm heading into big change. With plenty of fresh food, fresh sights, fresh sounds, January sounds like just what I need.

Matriarch's Kitchen

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Blue Days

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